December was, well .. not such a great month for me. I neglected to blog about anything because there really wasn't much to blog about. This post could be long if I let it, so instead I will split it into "groups". Short, sweet and to the point.
Depression. This has possibly been the worst month so far. I haven't done any projects since the Aqua End Table. Half way through the month, I told myself I would just focus on getting the house clean. I have cleaned, some. Christmas was a disaster but I will go into that next. I guess the best thing that did happen this month is that I finally talked to my mom. I told her that I think I need help and she agreed. I do such a good job of hiding my depression from everyone, so she was proud that I finally came forward and asked for help. No Doctor visits have been set up yet, but I'm pretty sure within the next month or so, there will be. I am so ready to kick this depresso thing in the butt!
Christmas. My mom and I both started out the month wanting to go big. All out. We started decorating, but it kinda fizzled. My family wasn't doing a big Christmas this year. We planned no gifts, just because we all are struggling this year. Just food, games and being together was the plan. The plan. My number one problem. I always have this "plan" worked out in my head of how I feel something should play out. Then when it doesn't, I feel devastated. It just sort of ruins my whole day from that point on. Well this day didn't go how I had planned. My aunt showed up earlier than anyone thought would. Everything that came out of my mouth that day, She had something ridiculously sarcastic to say about it. Finally, enough was enough. I marched my little butt back over to my house and stayed there the rest of the night. I cried. I cried some more. M was super supportive this go round. This was the night that I decided I really did need help and Christmas Day was when I talked to my mom.
Work. I mentioned earlier that I haven't done anything this month. I have such big dreams and high hopes of making something of myself. The motivation just isn't there. I sold 2 pieces of furniture in December, which means that I have now sold every piece of furniture I have done since I started. Which tells me that I can do this. I just need to do it faster. I can't make any money selling one or two pieces a month. I need to sell 5 or more. And that is totally do-able. If I can get my butt in gear!
Resolutions. I'm not good at sticking to goals, but I do have a few that I am gonna do my hardest to follow through this year.
- Stop Smoking! (This will be the hardest for me to accomplish, but I'm ready to seriously work on it.)
- Diet! (We got a pool for the backyard back in the summer. I need to be bathing suit ready!)
- Work, Work, Work! (Got to. Our future's depend on it!)
Those are all pretty self explanatory so I won't delve into them. So that just brings me to reality. I've noticed several people around blog land posting there "realities". How everything isn't so picture perfect all the time. We only post the things we want you to see and hide the things we don't want to show. Well, this is my reality.
All the Christmas has been taken down and boxed back up. The only problem is that because I have stored so much furniture for me to work on, our storage building won't hold anything else. Literally, you can't take one step inside the door. It is packed. So until I can weed through some furniture and make some room, this lovely pile of holiday gets to live in my living room.
Laundry. I don't think I ever get caught up on laundry. It's a never ending process. This is the current state. I pulled out all the baskets and piled them in front of the laundry room. I figured if I stumbled over them enough it would encourage me to just suck it up and do it. Not so much. I still just go through and pick out what we need the most and do that. I am making a promise to myself that by this weekend, this pile will no longer exist.
This chair (which is a piece waiting to be worked on) never stays clean. Right now, it's a coat rack. And a purse rack. And those plastic bags have paint cans in them. And my kitchen floor is grossly dirty in that spot, which is a little more reality than I was going for! :) I swear, I will clean this chair out and the next day it looks like this. The catch all.
On a brighter note, I hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas and an awesome New Year's!! Hopefully you will be seeing a lot more of me in 2012.
5:17 PM
Holly in Wonderland
